James 1:12

im lost. im broken. im helpless and tired.
im disappointed. im confused. im just at a loss for words.
i try and do the right thing. i confess. i plead. i sob.
yet i feel worthless and ashamed.
ive done all i can. i know im forgiven is His eyes.
but can i forgive myself?
can others forgive?
why do i feel so terrible?
i cant stop thinking.
i cant stop worrying.
that's me, a worrier.
i messed up. i understand the consequences.
but i dont know where to turn. i dont know what to do.
James 1:12 is what i'm holding onto.
"Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him."
trials and tribulations...suck.
but its through these times i refuse to turn to anyone else besides my Abba.
i need Jesus to hold on extra tight.
patience, as the old saying goes, is a virtue.
i will trust in Him.
He is my strength.
He is my hope.
He is my Savior.
Lord increase my faith.
help me to find strength in weakness.
if God is for me, then who can bring me down?